One of those days

There are days when I would prefer to just stay in bed,under the covers, and deny that this is my life.

Today is one of those days.

Don't get me wrong, I love my family, and for the most part love my life, but then there are the inevitable struggles. Right now I am smack dab in the middle of one of those struggles (not something I wish to discuss right now ), not anything life threatening or anything like that, but one that causes a whole heap of stress, and a worry.

It is at times like these when I am thankful for the faith I have in God, and the hope I find in Him.

Just me and the road

Today I had the rare priviledge of taking my walk....BY MY SELF!!

What a nice treat. Just me, my running shoes, some music, my water, and the road.

You would think that I might have used the time wisely to reflect on my week........

....nope.....

just enjoyed it.

It's a start

Well, I had one make it through the whole night, but the younger one was up at 1am. This time I decided I had to stick to my guns and make him stay in his bed. I can't complain if I keep bringing him in bed with me. So, He and I had a bit of a chat, he cried, I stayed in his room for half an hour, and he made it through til about 6. Not too bad.

I was so tired that I had gone to bed at 9:30pm, so I did manage to get afew hours of sleep in before he was up, and then another few before he got back up.

Today it is wet and yucky outside. Looks like no walk today. So, I will have to get on my gazelle or something before days end. This week I just haven't felt as positive as I did last week. I don't know why. I should be on a high after losing 4lbs, but I feel like I am dragging. I am still tracking my points, and getting in what I need to, but I feel just like this day. Blah.

Well, I am going to go do some housework that I keep procrastinating about. Hope everyone has a great weekend and stays focused on their goals!! Here's hoping for some sunshine tomorrow.

Please God, let them sleep the Whole night (and in their own beds!!!!)

What a horrible night last night.

I was up til after one in the morning...my fault for putting a movie on so late, but regardless it was very late when I went to bed. Within two hours I had my youngest son in bed with us, and about another hour and a half later, the older one was climbing in too.

THERE IS JUST NOT ENOUGH ROOM IN A QUEEN SIZED BED FOR FOUR PEOPLE!

My youngest pretty much decided that he didn't need to sleep after about 4 o'clock and kept chatting so that I knew he was still awake. The older one was curled up against one of my legs, and over the other one. NOT COMFORTABLE! By 5:30 I took the chatter back into his room to try and make him go back to sleep, and only succeeded in frustrating myself more. So, by 6 o'clock he and I were in the living room with Dora.

Needless to say, my morning walk was not high on my list of exciting things to do today. I had pretty much talked myself into taking Gabe to school then coming home and going back to sleep til I had to pick him up again. Then it happened......

I was getting them ready to head out the door, and there in the middle of the floor are my running shoes. UUgghh, now I have guilt. Oh alright. On went the shoes, and Zach and I managed to get in our morning walk. (thank goodness he couldn't hear the self talk going on in my head, cause apparently the part of me that wanted to sleep was NOT happy that my feet had taken control of the situation)

YYYYYEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!

YYYYYYEEEEEEESSSSSSSS!!!!!!!

Weigh in was this morning.

I am happy to report

DOWN 4 LBS!!!!!!

That makes my BLBE first week 4lbs, and my weight watchers week 11 total 17.6lbs!

Finally got past the 15lb mark (and got my next 5lb sticker...wahoo! lol)

Aiming to get past 20lbs next week.

Its REALLY late, so I am going to bed.

GOOD JOURNEY ALL BLBEr's

He Makes Me Laugh

I am sitting here feeling a bit blah. I went and did my walk this morning, was a couple minutes slower than usual, and just not able to get in the groove it seemed. Even now after my shower, I still don't feel quite on my game. I have the urge to snack (have been drinking water to counter that one- working ok so far). I do believe that TOM will be showing up in the next day or two which doesn't help. Just feeling off.

But.....

Even in this blah state, my little boy can still make me laugh. He is standing in our living room watching the Wonder Pets. There is always alot of singing in the wonder pets, and he has taken to dancing during the show. Cracks me right up. I think he gets his moves from his Dad. You just can't help but smile and laugh.

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Let it be over

Good morning! Well, it is monday, and I am nearing the end of my WW week. (I weigh in on Wednesday mornings). I am really proud of myself for how this week has gone. I look forward to being able to step on the scale on wednesday and know that I worked for whatever I get. Here's hoping for a good one.

Went for my walk with my youngest son this morning, and as I walked (he's in the stroller) I had one thought that was constantly in my head.

'Let this walk be over soon'.

I am looking forward to the time when I actually enjoy getting out and exercising. When I stop dwelling on getting it over with, and let myself enjoy nature, the time to reflect, and know that I am doing something great for myself.