What do you want out of life? What would make you happy? When you picture your "perfect" life, what do you see?
I once thought that my perfect life would mean that I had a wonderful husband, a couple great kids, a nice big house, good jobs, the kids in whatever they wanted to be in, vacations every year, etc, etc. As we try to find our way through our current circumstances I am coming to realize more and more how much that missed the mark. That version of my life dealt more with what I would have, then who I am or what I stand for and believe.
So what is my view of my life in this moment?
All too often I focus on the negative parts of it. The unpaid bills, my lack of housekeeping ability, the overwhelming list of this that I should be doing,my feelings of immense inadequacy as a wife and mom, and Christian. All of these negative thoughts cloud what is important, and make me forget who I am.
God made me. God loves me just as I am. He looks past my sins and shortcomings and sees the real me, the one that has been made perfect by the sacrifice of Jesus Christ. He has given me much to be thankful for.
Today I will look at my life with different eyes. Eyes that are not clouded by my negative circumstances, and open to what is beautiful and good.
I would like to live a life that is pleasing to the Lord. To raise my children to know who they are in Christ, that they can be anything they want to be, and that they are loved beyond measure. To have a strong marriage that is full of love, and rooted in Christ. To nuture and build our family with love, respect, and hope. To inspire them and others. To give. Give our time, our love, our hope in Christ, whatever is needed. To live, not just exist.
Do I have any of that figured out? Nope, but if I continue to seek God, I believe that He will put all of the pieces together.