After weighing-in and having my WW meeting yesterday I drove into Oakville for my day at HO(I get to work at Lovable Labels head office one day a week - love it!). The hour drive gave me some time to think and reflect on my Weight Watchers experience so far. My weigh-in was not as bad as it could have been. I had a gain of .8lbs. But it was the realization that came with that gain that is the subject of this post.
Up until this week, I have managed to lose every week except for the one that I stayed the same. They weren't huge losses, but every little bit counts, right? Sure it does, but letting yourself coast along instead of putting in the effort you know it deserves is just laziness. With my gain yesterday I realized that my words and my actions have been incongruent. I say that I really want this (and deep in my heart I really do), but my actions have not supported that statement. I have let myself be okay with the small losses because they were still losses, and heck, I really hadn't had to do much for them other than watch what I was eating.
It is the same with the exercise. I kept saying that I would TRY to get in 10 minutes a day...Try? Who am I kidding. I managed to try...once. If I really want to make my weight loss happen, then I am going to have to DO!! It needs to be a task that I schedule right into my day, otherwise I will get to the end of the day, and another day will have past without it. I just can't let that happen anymore.
Even though the gain was small, it had a large impact. I hated standing there on the scale and having to watch her write that number down. I was unhappy with myself. I looked in my tracker afterwards and in last weeks spot it says total loss...7.6lbs, this week its 6.8, and that is disappointing. I'm letting myself down. I'm sitting here looking at my boys, and I know that they deserve more from me. I need to show them that when you want to succeed at something, you have to work at it.
I have 3.2lbs to go to reach my first 10lbs gone. This week I am going to do what I know I have to and, God willing, maybe get to that first milestone. I WILL track everything I eat. I WILL drink my water every day. I WILL get all of my food groups in, including the 2tsp of essential oil. I WILL do some form of exercise EVERYDAY! Today I will do some extra exercise to make up for none yesterday.
NO MORE COASTING!
I want to go to my meeting next week and be proud of what I have accomplished.